It’s Valentine’s Day! It’s a day I used to sneer at and call single awareness day xD But to be honest I haven’t been single in awhile! And guess what? Nothing… really changed >>;; I found I don’t like to do anything big for valentine’s day. Some years I made chocolates for friends and other times we all went out for good food =3 The downside about the food part is… pretty much everyone else wants good food as well xD
I do think some thanking is in order for this guy who has constantly combated my weird with his weird xD Heck, I knew he was a keeper from the day I found out he can understand my mumbling of a talk!
I could probably go on and on about random tidbits but.. well… that’d just inflate his ego xP SO instead I’ll highlight on one point that I’ve been quite thankful for: my designing.
It never would have happened without him. I wouldn’t have found wonderful friends through girls who model for me or be able to just …be so happy seeing my designs come to life. I really do owe it to him & even though I can see him trying to weed out of being my manager (yea, you don’t fool me) I do understand as he has a hectic life on his own ><
Talk about finding someone who really brings out the best in you. Always refining myself into a better version :D Kinda how I pick my friends. In all my friends I admire a trait that I’d like to incorporate into my own life.
Anyways. Thank you for reading this jumbled mess of a post xD It’s late and I’m pretty tired. Don’t mind the weird picture I posted of him. He’s doing some impossible anime pose LOL. It was during a photoshoot and I was bored while he checked camera settings.
Also. I’d like to point out that I admire a lot of my “fans” which I like to refer to more as online friends, why? It’s weird to ever think I have fans XD But honestly if you like my work and design, I feel like we’d be on the same wavelength anyways to be able to talk :D At least we’d have something in common? ^^; Back to the point: I admire them because they have to charisma to say that they like my things with comments and likes. Personally I’m shy and it’s not in my habit to do that. But I see how happy it makes me seeing all the interactions… I want to pass it on! So I’ve been trying to like and comment when I get the chance :D
NOW it’s a jumbled mess. LOL. Sorry. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! Spend it with someone who gets you. if not? well. you get you, so treat yourself :D (cause that’s what I’m going to do today!)
Ok. Maybe not the most flattering picture of me xD But in my defense I never get up at 6am anymore especially when sleeping at about 2am. >> Mistakes were made.
If there’s one thing most people know about me it’s… I’m not very much of an outdoor type of person. Although I love seeing scenery and taking photos outside! :D I think it’s just bugs and sun I’m kinda meh about.
With that in mind I was able to convince my family and friends to start hiking! So we JUST went on one (if you see my random story on IG) and it was quite successful! It’s probably my 2nd time going hiking and the 1st time really discouraged me to the point where I would just flat out deny wanting to go. But honestly, being prepared and having a group that’s about my level of active (which is like a 1 on a scale of 1-10, 10 being active).
It was fun! I didn’t have any makeup and my hair go wreaked by the wind… but it wasa worth it~ Next time, totally need to remember my hat and probably invest in a bag so I don’t have to carry my phone so awkwardly. OH! It was a great trail for pokemon catching too =3
It’s my attempt to be active and I’m glad it’s actually starting to work! Now my plan is to get it in routine (at least twice a month!? Ideally once a week) and keep it at least until AX in July. This was I can also drag Gee along~ I think it’d be fun :D
I have my updating spree on random platforms and sometimes… I just go MIA XD It’s weird that way xD Anyways I took this picture off of my instagram story xD If you are remotely interested I’m now at @majestidesigns :D
Slowly weeding out my cosplay name of kimikotan. It’s not that I don’t like it… I think I just have found majesti to be easier xD Plus already I’ve gotten more people go “hey isn’t that majesti designs?” And at first I was really flustered but now I’m like… internally freaking out. When I say more people I mean… no one has ever done that with my cosplaying xDD They do tell you in business school branding is very important!! I see it now >>
School has been tough tho. I’m doing part-time but it’s still really hard to juggle everything >< Getting the hang of it!
I also am realizing I’m getting pretty old. I mean, not like I’m ever getting younger right? lol. But as I get older… so are my parents. And I know I’ve complained in the past but… I’m really starting to fully appreciate all they’ve done. Heck my dad is still working hard hours to get my sister through her fancy college >< I feel bad. But I see their health start to drop and I get worried. Thinking of getting my butt up early to make them work out with me xD It’s like family work out time! ^^;;
Yes sometimes my parents still drive my crazy but… eh. It’s how they are. I’m pretty sure I drive them crazy too so it’s pretty even.
It sucks though. When parents are at prime age they have kids and us kids don’t either remember how they were back then (cause games OP) or we just don’t fully appreciate it. Maybe that’s why I’m a bit annoyed a the little sister, our parents are actually quite accommodating. They just want a little talk in return, or for us to just be there for important holidays.
Aside from the show in a few days… I went back to uni! Why? Well… I really just felt like it. And that’s all I could really say to people because…yea. I wanted to say that it was just a gut feeling that it was the right move for me but that seems kind of odd too.
But today. Today was the first day of classes and I have an old professor that I took last term. I like him, he gets us millennials XP He always makes fun of us for being one but… it’s true. We are. Can’t really blame us for that can you?
I strayed away from my point xD SO! He was chatting away, pretty much ranting. Something about wanting to do better and not just coast through like how he’s been doing since… a few months ago. And I could tell he made this epiphany himself recently which is why he’s so passionate when he was speaking about it. But it really made me think…
me. me when I was SUPPOSE to take this class would’ve thought he was a nut job. But me. me NOW… I get where he’s coming from. I have licenses, a great hobby, a good life really! It’s a nice and I got really comfortable in it… but after a bit I wanted to do better. Just.. .better. Not for anyone else but me either. I wasn’t thinking about pleasing anyone but.. me! And if you know me… I have a complex about always wanting to please everyone.
He compared it to the workers who do their jobs but lack one thing like great writing skills. They are still great at their job but without … more they can’t move forward. Some people are content with keeping in that spot because it’s still decent. But at one point it’s totally okay to go ‘I want more’ and go out to work hard and achieve it!
I was always the type of person to find ways to better myself o.o I never really noticed it but looking back (and forward) I see it. Back in HS I was terrified of public speaking and yet I took a speech class. It helped bit… but not a lot. So I took another speech class in college! These classes? Totally optional. I even took accounting in HS. I took that OVER the fun ceramics class! So while people were showing off their cool bowls…. I learned about credits, debits and ledgers! (btw, was a great decision, no regrets with that!)
Even going forward… I’m taking difficult professors because it’s forcing me to read and learn the text. I found that I like the challenge. & to tie it all in… it’s why I keep making new things for collections :D I never really knew how much I love a challenge until recently xD ah, but don’t get me wrong. I do it for myself. I’m not a competitive person so if someone tries to race me to something, I could care less xD I think it annoys me more than anything. I’d rather bring someone forward together rather than competing to go forward.
But this post wasn’t to brag or boost in any way. I thought I’d share whatever was on my mind xD (Plus I had a slight headache and keeping my mind busy helps it go away).
It’s been awhile hasn’t it?! I know I’ve been MIA xD I’ve been doing the blog-ish type writing more on my patreon lately actually! But nothing really compares to when I have this endless space where… it sits here and the random passerbys may see it by some odd miracle xD
Life though? It’s been decent. Still in the same place but more content with it. Just today my mother saw me and instantly went “why are you doing all this, it’s not making you any money is it?” and I looked at her kind of like… this again?! Keep in mind this used to happen quite often and I’d always feel terrible afterwards. Now? Well I looked at her and went “I do it for my happiness and life satisfaction” and then she went speechless… until she found more stuff to pick at ><
See, I understand where she’s coming from but it’s something that keeps me sane… keeps my brain thinking of endless possibilities and honestly it’s really personally rewarding for me.
I have been thinking lately of trying to expand my follower base but that’s never something that’s really interested me. I feel like I need a public media person to take that over xD I’d love to talk with people who are interested in my work more one-on-one but… ugh. I just don’t have the space for it >< It’s been months of me trying to figure out how to get a stream schedule figured out … and if it’d be rewarding xD Oh gosh. I’m working on it guys, really.
Oh yea. And the picture is from a recent casual photoshoot! Posting more on fb and etc etc later. Trying to space it out a bit so I have stuff for later >> But everytime I do that… I forget to post it. AHH! =.=