Cause I like Snow :D


Yea I like snow and strapping myself onto a slippery board and flying down a slope LOL! xD 2nd time going up the slope and well… it went a lot better! For one the snow was ALOT better than last year but still left something to be desired. At least we didn’t have any dirt patches this time xD And snow (even if it was man made) was able to be kicked up if you wanted to do that.


It was cold though. My nose… PINK! I think I took this selfie before going down the slop at all… so it was early. It was cold. And I haven’t gone down at all which warms up my body. Plus the lift going up is always FREEZING T.T Oh. And no, I’m not on a dance team, this is my sister’s sweater XDDD I couldn’t find any of my warm ones before leaving! That’s Jasmine in the back. You can tell she’s ready xD

The funny thing is that my bindings were all weird (rentals T.T) so I actually needed help to strap myself in each time. It sucked. But you needed to like push and pull.. it was weird.


So the guys took a but just trying to fix my binding on top of the slopes… not scary at all right? Let’s just tell nikki her stuff is weird after getting to the top >.> That first run was SO terribly bad for me. I kept falling from just being unstable and not used to it T.T And the soreness… halp.

But after 2 runs I was barely falling and it was quite fun :D


I borrowed some goggles from a friend which was SUPER useful. I want ones myself but… probably better ones. =3 Cause yea. I have the money (<- totally saying that in a sarcastic tone) That’s Gee in the picture with alex’s goggles. Look at dem man hands. LOL sorry. I’m done >.>;;

Overall it was really fun. We’re planning to go more than once each year though… cause just once is just not enough!! I had a run where I didn’t fall at all`~~~~~~ And then another run where I took the go pro down with me half the way! Hopefully Heather finishes a video of that and I can post it up whenever that’s all done and ready :D I think there is another video of me just eating it (yea somehow they get me falling badly … anything. everywhere.) I have a huge bruise on my knee from getting stuck from the lift and just sliding/falling. And then nice soft spot on my left butt from just falling and I swear I bounced xD

Ok. That’s it for the snow part~


New leaf


I’m not really sure what’s up with me but I’ve been dealing with an absolutely terrible sore shoulder ache which gave me such little sleep T.T and then a nice headache yesterday…. That wasn’t fun as well. Anyways I find myself at Starbucks just because I want some time to …relax? Maybe less relax but be less… Worried. I just saw all the white hairs I have too… Maybe I’m really older than I seem lol.

Anyways. Lots of changes coming. Remember bulba? Yea. The officially story is that my mother kept complaining which makes my dad unhappy so he started to really nag at me to put her somewhere else which I really couldn’t find a person that would take her for a month…. A few days probably but a month!?? With the addition of her possibly never coming back? Ugh. Yea it was terrible. So one day my aunt just picks her up and takes her ….. Without telling me. So I freaked that I lost her somewhere…. Nope. After talking to mother I find out aunt knows a couple that’s been wanting a dog…

yea. My dog was given away to a family looking to own, not babysit…. My baby T.T so when that happened I took that as the last straw. I took that very personally with a tinge of grudge. Now if you know me, I have a really bad habit of holding grudges even tho I really try not to… But never mind that. I am now on a mission to…leave. To put it plainly I need to take control of all aspects of my life. That’s financially and mentally cause my emotions have been taking a real beating lately >.>

now don’t go on feeling sorry for me or anything. But if you do know of anyway to help id love to take all the help I can get~ but in the meantime I’ll keep staying positive. I’m lucky that I have really supportive friends. Even my online presence…I don’t receive hate at all o.o which I’d like to keep cause lets spread the love right?! <3

oh oh and the picture? I’ve found myself in the heart of LA lately and taking the advantage of sightseeing ~ so more later!


just for me

Puppy nap time

Puppy nap time @ the office

I find it interesting how I’ve kept blogging for so long. And to be honest it’s for a pretty selfish reason of just letting my mind have a breath of air and also just to remember what I may have done on a random Wednesday in October. I’m actually quite terrible at remembering things which is why I love to write things down. I have a weekly planner because daily planners require too much page flipping and monthly calendars don’t have enough room to doodle things in. I don’t think short term nor long term but… medium I suppose. Maybe a month or so at a time. But why am I writing this? I’m not completely sure. I haven’t done much today but kind of fail at work. Get bored at work. And just want to eat snacks and go home to work on something I’m actually passionate about. I thought “why am I passionate about it?” Is it just the amount of time you put into certain things? I thought that at first. That maybe if I spent enough time doing tax I would love it. But it seems like that hasn’t worked now has it? Cause then what would this blog turn into? “It’s my money time..” instead of “it’s my fairytale time”? Then I thought… maybe it’s the same correlation with people. Some people you instantly like, some take some time to warm up to, and other you just find annoying because of one antic or another. The passion you find in people I guess? Sounds weird, keep that in the context of not-lover xD

And so I sit here at the office, sort of trying to kill time as I love to do with games but as it is the office I have a lack of there. I wrote in my journal last night but it’s all just really trying to write the things I have learned recently. I’m hoping the journal will one day remind me of what was going through my mind during this age and time. And who knows, maybe I’ll be crazy enough to have a kid and will have to seek through my journals to figure out what may be going through their minds. I also found it good to write down my feelings for people with the more important reason of why. See… I started to write in a diary/journal since… 5th grade of elementary school. At that age I was reading “the diary of ______” insert a historical girl’s name there. And I read so many of them I decided I wanted a momento to keep so maybe someone else may read it and think my life was just as interesting. Yea. I thought that at age 10? Somewhere around there. Anyways. It’s been awhile. I’ve gone through a lot of “love of my life” and “fling” of some sorts through my days. but reading back I’m able to see how one “love” differed quite so with the love I hold now. And so I always encourage people to pick up a journal. Whether daily or something more my pace like biweekly if not monthly.

Yes. I’m still going on.

Extent of this post is pretty much done though. I have not more to write but a lot more to think and god knows what more to actually do. I know I’m not the greatest writer, heck, writing actually stresses me out quite a lot. Especially if I know people will be reading this. So here I just assume no one will read it.


Wedding love


Had a blast at my dear friend ajka & surja wedding!! Like.. it was such a fun wedding we’re still talking about it =3 so I got alot of stuff too since I can imagine how much it sucks to bring home the decorations… so I got a baby succulent and also the wild flower centerpiece~ the whole wedding was pretty flawless and everything went si smoothly! Ajka of course was absolutely stunning and the groom’s coat and wall down the aisle was amazing. Heck.. all of us walking down the aisle was so…thrilling! Can you say skyrim?! I could talk so much more about it but Im tired from it all xD went early for set up and left late to help clean~ it was my pleasure to do both ends too!
The hair piece I made was…perfect. I was really worried about it but it was absolutely perfect for her =3 speaking of perfect… they are the greatest couple I have seen. Like.. you can tell the admiration they have for each other.the respect and quirks even after almost 10’years. It’s amazing and they are just the greatest people I’ve been blessed to meet~
I shall try to update pictures later but for now… that’s all I have!! Oh and that’s my clay work on the bottom left…and the party favor in the top left! Ok.. tired. Sleeping. Night!




You know I really appreciate the arts a lot.. but that doesn’t mean I appreciate other things too! I was at a restaurant … I think Islands Burgers and it was playing some surfing and snowboarding on their TVs. I was just looking at it in awe as people were able to do such cool things on a board and be so.. fearless o.o That kind of skill you just see and you can’t… hate it. Just.. awe’s everywhere xDD But that thought then translated to other things! Like Singing and dancing! Both take a lot of control and a sense of being outgoing.
Now then I thought about cosplays… where I’m hoping people, regular normal people who don’t really know about it, can appreciate all the hard work that goes into making a flawless and detailed outfit/props. I’ve gotten comments where people thought I bought a cosplay instead of making it but what they probably don’t realize is that someone has to make it to begin with. It’s all man-made. So even store bought clothes I can see the work (and the not-work where it looks horrible). So no, I don’t buy my outfits. If I buy a piece I usually state it somewhere xD Usually like a dress shirt or something though…

That’s my rant.. xD Back to creating… and drooling over some artwork xD <- that’s another one. We know art has to be created by someone… so it’s never argued it’s fake like autotune or machinery… which both is really just a helping tool to make everything look a little nicer xD But I think people start to appreciate something more once they try to do it themselves and realize how difficult it is. Oh the rants =.= sorry!