Archive | January 2017

Better yourself


Aside from the show in a few days… I went back to uni! Why? Well… I really just felt like it. And that’s all I could really say to people because…yea. I wanted to say that it was just a gut feeling that it was the right move for me but that seems kind of odd too.

But today. Today was the first day of classes and I have an old professor that I took last term. I like him, he gets us millennials XP He always makes fun of us for being one but… it’s true. We are. Can’t really blame us for that can you?

I strayed away from my point xD SO! He was chatting away, pretty much ranting. Something about wanting to do better and not just coast through like how he’s been doing since… a few months ago. And I could tell he made this epiphany himself recently which is why he’s so passionate when he was speaking about it. But it really made me think…

me. me when I was SUPPOSE to take this class would’ve thought he was a nut job. But me. me NOW… I get where he’s coming from. I have licenses, a great hobby, a good life really! It’s a nice and I got really comfortable in it… but after a bit I wanted to do better. Just.. .better. Not for anyone else but me either. I wasn’t  thinking about pleasing anyone but.. me! And if you know me… I have a complex about always wanting to please everyone.

He compared it to the workers who do their jobs but lack one thing like great writing skills. They are still great at their job but without … more they can’t move forward. Some people are content with keeping in that spot because it’s still decent. But at one point it’s totally okay to go ‘I want more’ and go out to work hard and achieve it!

I was always the type of person to find ways to better myself o.o I never really noticed it but looking back (and forward) I see it. Back in HS I was terrified of public speaking and yet I took a speech class. It helped  bit… but not a lot. So I took another speech class in college! These classes? Totally optional. I even took accounting in HS. I took that OVER the fun ceramics class! So while people were showing off their cool bowls…. I learned about credits, debits and ledgers! (btw, was a great decision, no regrets with that!)

Even going forward… I’m taking difficult professors because it’s forcing me to read and learn the text. I found that I like the challenge. & to tie it all in… it’s why I keep making new things for collections :D I never really knew how much I love a challenge until recently xD ah, but don’t get me wrong. I do it for myself. I’m not a competitive person so if someone tries to race me to something, I could care less xD I think it annoys me more than anything. I’d rather bring someone forward together rather than competing to go forward.

But this post wasn’t to brag or boost in any way. I thought I’d share whatever was on my mind xD (Plus I had a slight headache and keeping my mind busy helps it go away).


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It’s been awhile hasn’t it?! I know I’ve been MIA xD I’ve been doing the blog-ish type writing more on my patreon lately actually! But nothing really compares to when I have this endless space where… it sits here and the random passerbys may see it by some odd miracle xD

Life though? It’s been decent. Still in the same place but more content with it. Just today my mother saw me and instantly went “why are you doing all this, it’s not making you any money is it?” and I looked at her kind of like… this again?! Keep in mind this used to happen quite often and I’d always feel terrible afterwards. Now? Well I looked at her and went “I do it for my happiness and life satisfaction” and then she went speechless… until she found more stuff to pick at ><

See, I understand where she’s coming from but it’s something that keeps me sane… keeps my brain thinking of endless possibilities and honestly it’s really personally rewarding for me.

I have been thinking lately of trying to expand my follower base but that’s never something that’s really interested me. I feel like I need a public media person to take that over xD I’d love to talk with people who are interested in my work more one-on-one but… ugh. I just don’t have the space for it >< It’s been months of me trying to figure out how to get a stream schedule figured out … and if it’d be rewarding xD Oh gosh. I’m working on it guys, really.

Oh yea. And the picture is from a recent casual photoshoot! Posting more on fb and etc etc later. Trying to space it out a bit so I have stuff for later >> But everytime I do that… I forget to post it. AHH! =.=