Archive | April 2017

Do what you can


These weekend trips have been quite fun~ I’m happy I’m able to get some interesting picture in different place! Trying to keep track of it all so I keep a reference and take lots of pictures =3

Its weird… I definitely didn’t think I’d enjoy being outside and walking about. xD But then again… I didn’t think I’d be like this a few years ago. And not like it’s a bad thing. I’m quite happy with where I’m at and where I’m going. I didn’t think I would be but at once point in time my mindset switched and I just had a slightly different outlook on life. But mainly… I wanted to make sure I was moving forward and not getting stuck in one spot. I see too many peers from all walks of ages get stuck where they are not able to more forward in life whether it’s because education, jobs, friendships, distance, etc etc. There are plenty of different reasons that can contribute to it.

We all grow. Change. And adapt. It’s not a bad thing… it’s just part of life. I have a friend who seems a little sad I went into accountancy more instead of pursuing my designing. And… it’s not that I’ve given up designing… I just believe I can also succeed in accountancy and it’ll give me the backbone for me finances. Plus… I’ve always had the vision of opening up businesses and to do that I really need to know my finance stuff. I just want to expand my borders a bit :D Never a bad thing to do as long as it makes you happy. And …although I never thought it would, I am pretty happy doing it. It’s like a huge sudoku puzzle and it’s quite fascinating. But let’s face it, sudoku is so much more entertaining xD

So I’m not living in some condo with a dog and a stable job. Well.. sorry 12 year old me xD I let you down a bit. But hey, life doesn’t go how you’d think. I am working fexible hours, heading towards state certification and have a wonderful boyfriend that somehow get’s what I’m saying… most of the time xP

Sometimes I get people say “omg, how do you do all this?” Well.. you pick a goal. You work at it. You get it. Pick a new one and go again! I’ve gotten cosplay accomplished this way. My degree. My certifications. Fashion shows. Yea it’s hard work but… it’s totally worth it :D

A little older


So as I get older… everyone else is getting older too! That’s just how the world works xD Life goes on even if I don’t have a birthday xDD

This year… my mind has been all over the place. I really haven’t had any thoughts on what I’d do on my birthday other than work …. And the weekend directly before it was always kinda up in the air. I didn’t have plans… but I noticed everyone else kinda did have some? So I went.. meh. I can have a chill birthday!

I think my family saw I was just.. not doing anything. So they took me out and it was… good. Mom’s a little teenager on her phone and conversations got awkward pretty easily with everything that’s been happening in my family.

At this point I really just savor the moments where I don’t have to worry >< It’s …it’s something. So today came around and…it just made me sad. All the little things that has happened from the weekend and throughout today has…. well. I can’t really describe it. I mean comon. I didn’t even bother to wear half my makeup for the past 2 days. >>

Nothing really felt too special about it… but I’m grateful for all the happy wishes~ Each and every one of them brought a smile to my face~


So I’ve known this for awhile now but never really found it THAT relevant until rather recently. Aka…  I decided to read the whole article. xD The problem I find with articles that try to pinpoint who you are as a person is that… as people living in similar spaces we share a lot of the same feelings as even experiences. So when I read things like horoscopes that tell me that I’m… let’s say active. I go, yea I am! Or that I’m shy. But in reality I probably can somewhat align with all the possible outcomes. And even if I don’t, I get to feel special that I’m not like “one of the many” who do. So really it’s a win-win situation for those who are writing these things.

Sorry. Off track. But this is the personality test that’s known to be a little more accurate and more aligned with how you answer certain questions. One of my old friends made me take it a long time ago and I took a class in university that expanded on the idea of using it to help the workplace.

So I’m an INFP. known as the “mediator” group. Funny thing is.. I never knew why I always had the urge to either write or do some poetry… well. I found out why xD
^ that’s me in a nut shell

I bring this up because today in class I found that I am able to easily talk to certain people. You’d assume it’d be those who are closer in age. But nope. I found myself talking to a girl whose 2nd language is english and an older man who has such a sense of humor with a sharp mind. That’s one one side of me. On the other side sits 2 guys (and I normally get along well with guys) they’re undergrads and… well. I find it more difficult to understand them and articulate what I’m thinking. It’s weird.

It reminded me today that… I really don’t care about age or looks. I really care about personality and …well intent really.

One thing about me though… I’m terrible with keeping up with people. In general. It’s not that I don’t like to, it’s never really been in my nature. But if someone makes the effort to talk to me then I’ll usually gladly respond! I’m actually quite happy when people send messages or questions.

So…what’s your personality?

–Side note: There’s not a personality that will encompass you completely I feel like. So don’t take it all to heart!


I happened to come across this video about long distant relationships today which kind of encompassed what it’s kind of been like. At least from my point of view xD Kind of sucks that I don’t really have anyone to kind of know what it’s like. I have friends who have always been in LDRs (long distant relationships) and some whose longest distance is an hour away! So when you factor in time zones, school and … just life. It gets a little bit more difficult.

I do like one point she makes which is…. it forces you to become independent. And that was one thing I didn’t really like at first… but then I’ve found to really like it. I’ve seen some girls who can’t do anything without their significant other and it’s just not how I want to be. Yet, at the same time I do feel a bit envious that they can have someone else around and helping them out all the time. It reminds me of the word “princess” and how I’ve never really liked it. I guess it’s just associated with someone who is always waited on. But then again maybe that’s why I’ve titled my latest collection “queen”. Can’t help but to like the powerful independent kind of women xD

Anyways. I don’t mean to bash on anyone’s relationship. If it works for you, then it works! Can’t really ask for more than just being happy~ And yes, if you are wondering at all, I am happy. I’ll always have this underlying sadness while in an LDR but… there’s not much else to do than revel in the happy moments~