A little older

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So as I get older… everyone else is getting older too! That’s just how the world works xD Life goes on even if I don’t have a birthday xDD

This year… my mind has been all over the place. I really haven’t had any thoughts on what I’d do on my birthday other than work …. And the weekend directly before it was always kinda up in the air. I didn’t have plans… but I noticed everyone else kinda did have some? So I went.. meh. I can have a chill birthday!

I think my family saw I was just.. not doing anything. So they took me out and it was… good. Mom’s a little teenager on her phone and conversations got awkward pretty easily with everything that’s been happening in my family.

At this point I really just savor the moments where I don’t have to worry >< It’s …it’s something. So today came around and…it just made me sad. All the little things that has happened from the weekend and throughout today has…. well. I can’t really describe it. I mean comon. I didn’t even bother to wear half my makeup for the past 2 days. >>

Nothing really felt too special about it… but I’m grateful for all the happy wishes~ Each and every one of them brought a smile to my face~

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Mediator

So I’ve known this for awhile now but never really found it THAT relevant until rather recently. Aka…  I decided to read the whole article. xD The problem I find with articles that try to pinpoint who you are as a person is that… as people living in similar spaces we share a lot of the same feelings as even experiences. So when I read things like horoscopes that tell me that I’m… let’s say active. I go, yea I am! Or that I’m shy. But in reality I probably can somewhat align with all the possible outcomes. And even if I don’t, I get to feel special that I’m not like “one of the many” who do. So really it’s a win-win situation for those who are writing these things.

Sorry. Off track. But this is the personality test that’s known to be a little more accurate and more aligned with how you answer certain questions. One of my old friends made me take it a long time ago and I took a class in university that expanded on the idea of using it to help the workplace.

So I’m an INFP. known as the “mediator” group. Funny thing is.. I never knew why I always had the urge to either write or do some poetry… well. I found out why xD
https://www.16personalities.com/infp-personality
^ that’s me in a nut shell

I bring this up because today in class I found that I am able to easily talk to certain people. You’d assume it’d be those who are closer in age. But nope. I found myself talking to a girl whose 2nd language is english and an older man who has such a sense of humor with a sharp mind. That’s one one side of me. On the other side sits 2 guys (and I normally get along well with guys) they’re undergrads and… well. I find it more difficult to understand them and articulate what I’m thinking. It’s weird.

It reminded me today that… I really don’t care about age or looks. I really care about personality and …well intent really.

One thing about me though… I’m terrible with keeping up with people. In general. It’s not that I don’t like to, it’s never really been in my nature. But if someone makes the effort to talk to me then I’ll usually gladly respond! I’m actually quite happy when people send messages or questions.

So…what’s your personality?

–Side note: There’s not a personality that will encompass you completely I feel like. So don’t take it all to heart!

LDR

I happened to come across this video about long distant relationships today which kind of encompassed what it’s kind of been like. At least from my point of view xD Kind of sucks that I don’t really have anyone to kind of know what it’s like. I have friends who have always been in LDRs (long distant relationships) and some whose longest distance is an hour away! So when you factor in time zones, school and … just life. It gets a little bit more difficult.

I do like one point she makes which is…. it forces you to become independent. And that was one thing I didn’t really like at first… but then I’ve found to really like it. I’ve seen some girls who can’t do anything without their significant other and it’s just not how I want to be. Yet, at the same time I do feel a bit envious that they can have someone else around and helping them out all the time. It reminds me of the word “princess” and how I’ve never really liked it. I guess it’s just associated with someone who is always waited on. But then again maybe that’s why I’ve titled my latest collection “queen”. Can’t help but to like the powerful independent kind of women xD

Anyways. I don’t mean to bash on anyone’s relationship. If it works for you, then it works! Can’t really ask for more than just being happy~ And yes, if you are wondering at all, I am happy. I’ll always have this underlying sadness while in an LDR but… there’s not much else to do than revel in the happy moments~

Introverted, sorta.

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I was thinking how introverted I am >> I was (well still sort of am) a shy kid and that stuff kind of sticks even as growing up. You just kind find ways to diminish it but it’s still there at the core. But I was thinking… why don’t I mind talking to random people now? I thought about it last night and came to the conclusion that I like having the opportunity to make someone’s day a little better. I usually don’t bring grief or hardships to them >>

I wrote that tidbit a few days ago and just the other day this happened! What happened? This wonderful Tiramisu dessert~ It was really good and quite different. Anyways the waiter that came by and just asked us questions ended up really liking us and gave us dessert on the house :D It was quite good and oh man I want some more =3

Just shows spending a bit of time to get to know people here and there can be a mutual benefit. (And of course sometimes it bites you in the butt but… hey, it’s always going to be a risk)

Anyways, it’s kind of like how Ellen always says “be kind to one another”.
It’s not going to ever really be a bad thing to do. & how can I ever regret being nice?
Remember, be nice but be firm with yourself! Don’t let yourself get pushed around with your ideals but always educate yourself to know what’s right.

 

Hiking continues

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In an attempt to get my family to be more active, me and my brother have decided to really dedicate ourselves to get up early Sunday mornings to really get out and see new sights! So far it’s been going really well and it’s good to see my parents really get out and just enjoy good scenery and weather! I’m quite proud of my dad who doesn’t really get out at all be able to conquer a full trail of uphills and huge steps. And for a trail that has many dogs, my mom did not freak out as much as I thought she would xD So it’s all good!

For the most part that is xD I mean I do get annoyed at my parents pretty often still but that’s usually resulting from being hangry and them not understanding where I’m really at in life >< It’s always a hectic planning battle in my head and I’m surprised I’m keeping up. Ever have those moments? Where your brain goes a little faster than writing or speaking. It’s been happening to me lately and I’ve been trying to write things down right when that happens xD It helps!

Speaking of writing, I think after this planner I’ll really design my own. It’s something I’ve always wanted to do and I haven’t forgotten about it!

BTW, in an attempt to edit this picture so the background was as nice as I saw it… my face shadows got a little distorted xD It’s okay though! It was a no makeup day anyways. & look, the city of LA~ I believe this hike was near the Hollywood sign! Quite a trip xD