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Puppy nap time

Puppy nap time @ the office

I find it interesting how I’ve kept blogging for so long. And to be honest it’s for a pretty selfish reason of just letting my mind have a breath of air and also just to remember what I may have done on a random Wednesday in October. I’m actually quite terrible at remembering things which is why I love to write things down. I have a weekly planner because daily planners require too much page flipping and monthly calendars don’t have enough room to doodle things in. I don’t think short term nor long term but… medium I suppose. Maybe a month or so at a time. But why am I writing this? I’m not completely sure. I haven’t done much today but kind of fail at work. Get bored at work. And just want to eat snacks and go home to work on something I’m actually passionate about. I thought “why am I passionate about it?” Is it just the amount of time you put into certain things? I thought that at first. That maybe if I spent enough time doing tax I would love it. But it seems like that hasn’t worked now has it? Cause then what would this blog turn into? “It’s my money time..” instead of “it’s my fairytale time”? Then I thought… maybe it’s the same correlation with people. Some people you instantly like, some take some time to warm up to, and other you just find annoying because of one antic or another. The passion you find in people I guess? Sounds weird, keep that in the context of not-lover xD

And so I sit here at the office, sort of trying to kill time as I love to do with games but as it is the office I have a lack of there. I wrote in my journal last night but it’s all just really trying to write the things I have learned recently. I’m hoping the journal will one day remind me of what was going through my mind during this age and time. And who knows, maybe I’ll be crazy enough to have a kid and will have to seek through my journals to figure out what may be going through their minds. I also found it good to write down my feelings for people with the more important reason of why. See… I started to write in a diary/journal since… 5th grade of elementary school. At that age I was reading “the diary of ______” insert a historical girl’s name there. And I read so many of them I decided I wanted a momento to keep so maybe someone else may read it and think my life was just as interesting. Yea. I thought that at age 10? Somewhere around there. Anyways. It’s been awhile. I’ve gone through a lot of “love of my life” and “fling” of some sorts through my days. but reading back I’m able to see how one “love” differed quite so with the love I hold now. And so I always encourage people to pick up a journal. Whether daily or something more my pace like biweekly if not monthly.

Yes. I’m still going on.

Extent of this post is pretty much done though. I have not more to write but a lot more to think and god knows what more to actually do. I know I’m not the greatest writer, heck, writing actually stresses me out quite a lot. Especially if I know people will be reading this. So here I just assume no one will read it.


mochi mochi mochi



It was green tea flavored and it was amazing~ Its mochi on the outside. A green tea mousse with red bean bits on the inside. With a green tea cake for a bottom layer. It was quite yummy, big enough that I shared with my sister and didn’t mind sharing xP Also she isn’t the greatest fan of green tea so… … more for me? I did like how they made it so you didn’t taste actual powder from the matcha. Pleasant that way~

Home has been absolutely wonderful lately. Probably the reason why I spent a good 4 hours at a Starbucks until I was summoned back to clean a really gross mess of a fridge =.= I won’t even ask why but… yea.

I’m back to job hunting too. Trying to figure out my life and right now it’s not doing everything my parents tell me xD I have a great use of time instead of JUST doing that.

Annnd… I just lsot a league game really depressingly. I was up against a diamond player =.= While we had a newbie on our team that was lvl 17. I don’t understand how that match up was remotely fair but we got eaten so bad it kind of makes me mad league let a team like that go against ours. It kinda ruins the game if the skill level is so far off >.< Although it did test my skills with syndra a little more. just a little. Had to try and predict more than I’m used to.

Anyways! No point in brooding right? Just a little rant. Maybe I’ll paly again… maybe not though. I think I should draw or do something… I’m behind on my work already T.T


Rawr selfie




So uh yea. I spent the past day like…. joined to the hip with this little one. I know her growls, whines, tail flicks…. its crazy =.= But it’s also reassuring that I do know these things at the same time. I like it when she gets cuddly and just insists on sitting on my lap. Of course it’s cute until my butt falls asleep XDD

This picture… was taken kinda randomly. She was sleeping in my lap and I really wanted a selfie with her… but she was so sleepy =.= but if she’s not sleepy she wouldn’t even want to selfie with me! T.T

One more night away from home…. last night I spent the night at a good friend’s house and it was quite entertaining! They made my breakfast which was super yummy and organic. Lets see… orange juice, organic blueberry wheat waffles, fresh strawberries which weren’t sour,eggs, and organic mustard, organic maple syrup. ….makes me love the healthy lifestyle lol! Plus it gave me so much energy in the morning… add in the energetic positive talks in the morning?! its SO different from home ways it was really nice. That alone was a great vacation and it was just a night/morning lol! I can see how people take advantage of it. But it also taught me a good lesson on how your attitude in the morning changes not only a person’s mood that day but in the long run. So no complaining in the morning. Not about yourself or other people.

Now… I play a game called Don’t Starve. It’s quite an addicting survival game. I hate it but love it all the same.


Little stress filled vacation


So I’ve been MIA the past few days… but that’s because I took a little… vacation time~ And it just happens I can’t work around friends so easily xD Nor Gee… he’s such a bad influence >.> But then again he didn’t really work all week either LOL!

I believe it was starting Wed of this week I was freaking out about leaving the house for awhile and making the my family had adequate help from me in terms of cleaning the house. Well not cleaning… our house is getting fumigated for all the spiders and bugs sitting in there. Spider season this year is real o.o I’ve killed so many it’s crazy, so getting out of the house before their impending doom is quite nice. But! So From Thursday to the rest of the weekend I have been on vacation~ I finally got some time to myself (minus the dog on my lap while writing this) so I have time to update and get back to people!

You can actually see bulba next to a dog friend that’s a big fluffy doggy. They liked each other but he never wanted to play with her o.o oh well. I admit, the first 2 nights away from home bulba wouldn’t stop whining and complaining QQ It was terrible. I felt like an actual mother from the waking up in the middle of the night and lack of sleep. At one point I saw the clock turn from 3am – 4am- 5 am until I probably passed out (or bulba finally decided to stop screamin her head offf =.=) I felt bad cause I’m pretty sure the neighbors could hear it loud and clear…

I actually bought a few new things to keep me busy at home for selling items so… looking forward to updating on that too~

OH! And Round 1, the arcade place that has the japanese crane machines, had one with alpacas in it… I wanted one REALLY badly >.> But I managed to persuade gee to get it and then to not in the end.. why? Well… I really don’t need another stuffed animal.. so really cute as the white one it T.T So that’s that picture.

Hmm… other than that. I’ve been thinking a lot this week. I talked to various friends about the predicament I’m in and I’ve sorta found the answer for it? I found a pathway if anything. I just have to get on it and run the heck outta here. Life when I get back home into my parents house is gonna suck pretty badly now. Don’t ask >.> But I am not looking forward to it. So as an alternative… I’ll enjoy my time and make a plan!

Because of my family though it really put a lot of stress onto me. I’m the type of person to try an compromise for everyone to be happy. It’s what I’ve been taught. But now I’ve noticed that I tend to compromise for situations to make other people happy when it really does nothing for me in return! So now I have to reevaluate some of my decisions because if it never benefits me then… I think I might be stuck here for awhile. So… sort of a vacation… it was stressful. my skin is breaking out pretty badly because of it all. I need some relaxing time with a massage >.>;;


New corset … idea.


Well~ I’ve been working on a full corset recently. It’s taking a little longer than expected… a few days now (partially.. ok mainly because of starcraft 2) but so far I’ve gotten a lot more progress on it. Not all the lines are in yet though… making it all a little different from the last ones I’ve made. It’s a learning and working process for sure. I’m trying to take as many pictures as I can just to keep it as a reference and hopefully find photos and see if I can make a guide out of it!

On another note… this week is gonna be weird. Can’t say much of that yet. And Bulba finally got all her shots! Minus one but it’s… not making her unable to go out for walks. So I’m happy~ She’s a little trooper~

I want to finish this cosplay this week just so I can get some pictures sometime at the end of the week. I dunno if I’ll be able to make it in time but.. I’ll try! :D